Please Come Back

waaiit- what's the date again?? 1st of December?? great, the beginning of the month is already here which means my finals are right on the corner of my frustration -_-

i need my thanksgiving break again :(
come back..
please >_<


nyom! eventho my thanksgiving break is only a week (-not even), it was the craziest yet a whole lotta fun just like summer x] despite the weird weather tho. Let's see.. what should i talk about after i -err..- stop updating..

Just finish creating a sketchup model for my actual model, i hope my professor would accept it, or maybe.. not. that is what i hate about procrastinating.. you always think that you would do everything on the last minute but wadyu know about how God's work? well.. it's not actually God's work, it's my own fault and.. i dont take responsibility and.. i keep on keepin' on procrastinating -HARR HARR >:9

mm.. the clock just hits 4.50 AM and i still have another paper to do but yeah, 'other me' said i can do it later when i wake up before taking a shower and go to class :P nice job procrastinating huh?

And guess what? I'm going back to Jakarta this friday -knowing that my final is after i go back to NY-


Err.. i think i need my beauty sleep [+_o'] my eyes twitched by itself and tried to close off of this post.. my eyes are wandering around between the keyboard and the monitor and my nails and my blanket and my pillows and ..



cuddling with my mom & dad is the best moment ever.

love 'n' miss you guys


"Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there."

I'm surrounded by your embrace

i just love hanging out with my friends.

they put sunshine on my face.


"Hands, touching hands, reaching out
Touching me, touching you
Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
I've been inclined to believe it never would"



i do feel alone
when i know
i have my friends out there

i'm alone at my corner of the world


1. feeling fear; filled with apprehension
2. feeling regret, unhappiness
3. feeling reluctance, unwillingness, distaste

1. scared, fearful, disquieted, apprehensive, timid, timorous. Afraid, alarmed, frightened, terrified all indicate a state of fear.


Oh, Lonely Night

As we get older, our responsibilities get high and pressure is everywhere you go. Once you stop where you are standing, everything's haunting you. School, life, family, friends.. you just hope there are enough hands to help you. I'm not saying that I'm emo or something like that, haha, it's just.. when something happened in front of your eyes and it's actually happened to you, you just hope that the time will stop without all of those haunting.


I'm afraid of the world now.
The world is taking me into pieces, keep me shattered into places.
I need more hands to push me through.
But I'm the only one that pulling it into myself.
Should I go away from the surface and hide under a cover?
I need my blackness night to cover my fear.
I don't wanna go back to brightness to not being myself.
It's better for me to be in the dark and be myself rather than that.